all these years

all these years

i keep missing you

my body and soul

surrendered in your embrace

my arms like vice grips

holding onto you

my memory sharp

like the day i was born

remembering all moments

passionate to endearing

your caresses

charming like a child's dimple

beautiful as you are

loyal as you are

all these years

i keep missing you

you are my love

you are my home

you are my motivation

i love you so much

my mind intoxicated

with words

thinking of adjectives

hallucinating on your smell

all these years

i keep missing you

escapism

i escape

the inescapable

the mental

the restless

the weary

the stupid

the dreaded

the weak

the wounded

the lost

for what i escape

i surpass

down between

the looking glass

i see myself granted

bestowed upon me

my everlasting prison

eternal flame

in the night

a playful whisper

is heard through

the candlelight language

i follow this language

around the corner

only to hear

a young bellow wind

flow across the spectacle

a weirdly stance ensues

people a passionate faith

becomes a common

even children play

wherever i go

this language

proven so powerful

i am hypnotized

mystical may it seem

only science-fiction

proves the latter

citric acid

the sound of taste

is mesmerized by

the throngs of

four fingered

homo sapiens idaltu

they listen to the crunch

they listen to the chew

four toed homo rhodesiensis

don't care for taste

only that for pleasure

to fight and to consume

the male and

females both cook

neither is satisfied

only to their delight

swim creatures

taste better sour denaturalized

with onions, chili, salt and pepper

whiskey tango foxtrot

confucius say

"no matter where you go

there you are"

i say

"transcendent like a wave

only smaller than

an atom's toenail

the color is washed"

they say

"what the fuck"

feed the masses

feed the world

like farmers

feed their livestock

feed the minds

with winds that

carry across oceans

feed the hunger

with the desire of

wolves

feed the peace

like it's the 1960's

feed humanity bull shit

like a disease

and vomit remains

dive in

pondering feelings

underneath a new world

facing challenges

like blue whales

crossing oceans

following a path

destined for surprise

the day has come

my heart open

lead me to dive

my fear will unveil

i impel myself

i'm prepared to thrive

no ultimatum

too steep

no waters

too deep

i confront the worst

head on

feet first